Recently, I went to do the most normal and mundane activity with my teenage daughter. We went to take the dogs out for their nightly walk. As is typical in this part of the country, the heat of the day gave way to an evening thunder storm. Many times I forget the gentle and miraculous gifts that nature provides and her profound message.
I was trying to cover my head with my jacket to avoid becoming drenched. I caught a glance of my daughter. She was lifting her chin up to the moon and stars letting the rain wash down over her. Relishing and dancing in celebration. The difference in our responses to the situation was vast. I had to pause and ask myself why my reaction was to hide and my daughters was to experience and celebrate.
I spent some time reflecting on this difference. When I explore the darkness of life there is always a very fine line between the beautiful moonlight illuminating the skies and showing off the stars that draw pictures in the universe and the dark shadows that are created. Most tend to stay in wide open spaces in order to only see the moonlight beams or where there is artificial light. Why is it that in general we tend to shy away from the shadows?
The shadows hold the fears, the negative emotions, the heaviness of life. I can only assume that this is the reason that the “lightworkers” of the globe shy away from dealing with the darkness. The fear of giving it too much energy and allowing it to spread. Logically thought process for most. None of us want to spend our lives in the negative darkness. We all strive to live life in the most positive way possible. I get this.
When I look at the darkness, explore it and begin to understand it I am reminded of the Taoist symbol. This simple symbol is something that many carry as a reminder, but do they truly understand what it represents. It shows how it completes itself with true darkness compared to true light. They do not compete. They precede and follow one another. Within this symbol it shows me where my own inner light is needed most to stay in the natural cycle of light and dark or day and night.
Stay with me for a moment. What if we step into the darkness and explore it. Begin to understand it and why it exists? What if we look face to face with our fears? What if we see the shadowy side of ourselves? What if we take down the veil or mask that we put up to the world and reveal ourselves naked and vulnerable for who we really are? It is only after this deep intimate look into self that we can truly begin to see the moon’s rays illuminate. It is then that we have no need for the artificial light. Our own inner light will be a beacon.
All energy, whether it is from the darkness or from the light, is energy that we must develop a relationship with it. It takes time and energy to develop relationships. Perhaps even more so when you are working with energy from the darkness. However, when you find ways to determine and identify what the darkness is, give it a voice and honor it for being part of sacred; the breakthroughs within your own life can be astronomical. It is only through delving into the darkness, becoming intimate with the knowledge contained there, and learning the value of the shadows that I have become able to change the tide in my own life. If one can not dare enter their own darkness, how can any one share their own light with someone else lost in the darkness?
It is interesting that a great deal of the people I have come across in my path that have all the right intentions and motivations in their sharing and service; yet, each of them seem to be searching for something more. They proclaim how happy, joyous and free they are and speak all the right words. To watch them walk, to see their energy, and to listen to the whispers between the words there is a great deal of imbalance.
I have no delusion that I am balanced, centered, and focused all of the time. I pray that I never become that person. It was shared with me by a mentor that I needed to become the pendulum or better yet learn to become the energy that surrounds the pendulum. In either case, you are in constant movement. Constantly shifting from the light to the dark. Constantly seeing things from new perspectives. Savoring and celebrating every moment in the movement.
I ended up outside last night in the rain with my daughter and our dogs laughing, relishing in the cleansing rain, and celebrating the gift of the dark night. I was shown once more that it is the simplest of lessons that I gain the most insight.