Regardless of the exact reasons, there are certain changes that need to happen in order for progress to be made. Often one must tear down an existing structure before a better one can be built. Will you do the Pictures?
It is the day after our Healing Sweat Lodge and as I wandered out to the site for a morning fire the space seemed different. I sat holding a rose quartz crystal that was gifted to me by one of the participants at the Lodge. As I sat there I began to realize how different 24 hours can make not only a person but the energetic signature of the land herself.
The sacrifices that were made to the fire by me personally were significant. As the fire was built up there were many things added that were part of the past. They were part of the past structure that I had built in my personal life, my emotional life, and within my spiritual life. As I watched the fire engulf them, I struggled not to change my own mind and rush in to "rescue" individual "beams" of that structure. I had not had the intention even hours before to sacrifice these things to the fire. My only intention when I started the day was to call in the Lord of Fire to purify the land, purify the souls, and bless both.
Giving up, releasing, tearing down ~ these are all things that are part of the shifting of awareness and awakening that each person faces as they walk their journeys. If you allow the process to evolve with the spiritual guidance that comes from the Divine, you may not understand the reasoning behind the releasing. It can, at first, feel as though parts of you are being ripped from your soul. Change does not always feel like a gentle breeze blowing leaves away. Standing still, inhaling deeply, and trusting the "pictures" allows new perspectives to enter in.
As the Lodge proceeded, the fire grew, and the heat could be felt new pictures appeared. It never ceases to amaze me how when you completely let go, free fall into the void of change, how suddenly the pictures clear and truth becomes so clear. I have to ask myself many times how I did not see that before. The perspectives gained in letting go or releasing become objective. Old beliefs and experiences do not influence these new pictures, as there is no experience to attach to them.
To stand outside of self and watch your own physical body participate in a ceremony was interesting. To watch the body languages of others participating, to see from outside their truths being exposed, to watch the energetic flow shift, and to experience the healing of yet others as only a Divine Source could provide was both a joy and an awakening.
It was once shared with me that in truth nothing is secret. There are no protective barriers and no shields. In truth all is exposed. In truth the raw, vulnerable you with all aspects (the good, the bad, and the ugly) are laid out and it is only then when things can be healed. To see fear as an energy, to see anger and hurt as an energy, to see unconditional love and pure desire as an energy, these are not experiences that can be described in words. To see the energetics of words and souls be mismatched in nature and watch as energy shifted into truths is something that is a pure artistic 'Monet'.
I have been blessed.
As a side note, approximately two hours after the Sweat Lodge had ended and people has taken their leave, it struck me that I still had the foundation even if the walls of my structure had been torn down. Over the next couple of hours, new projects came rushing into my life (late on a Saturday night - grins). I can only wonder what the new structure will become . . .